Ladies of London’s Misse Beqiri Breaks Silence on Ex Jake Hall’s Death at 35: ‘My Heart Is Shattered’

The reality star said her “heart is shattered” as she mourned Hall, with whom she shared daughter River

Jake Hall and Misse Beqiri; Jake Hall and daughter

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Ladies of London star Misse Beqiri is mourning the shocking death of her ex, Jake Hall.

Hall, with whom Beqiri shares her 8-year-old daughter, died on May 6 during a trip to Mallorca. He was 35. Hall was found dead at a villa with head injuries, the Majorca Daily Bulletin reported, and had shards of glass from a glass door in his chest, per local outlet Ultima Hora.

In a May 9 Instagram post, Beqiri, 39, shared a lengthy statement about her ex. “I never thought I would ever have to write this, and the pain of even putting these words down feels unbearable,” she wrote.

“There was no way you were ever supposed to go. My heart is shattered, and so is our daughter’s. You lit up every room you walked into – your smile, your charm, your energy that filled the air. The way you loved music, how deeply you felt every sound, your creativity, your mind, your spirit,” she continued. “You were so deeply loved by so many people, and seeing the love everyone has for you is both heartbreaking and beautiful all at once.”

Ladies of London's Misse Beqiri Breaks Silence on Ex Jake Hall's Death at 35: 'You Are at Peace Now'

Misse Beqiri and Jake Hall.MISSÉ BEQIRI/Instagram

Beqiri, who got engaged to The Only Way Is Essex star in 2018 but later split from him, said that she “loved you from the very first moment I saw you, and there was [no] chance you were going to let me go.”

“Together we created the most beautiful girl, the one you loved more than anything in this world, beyond words. Your love for her was so strong it almost scared me, because I knew you would go to the ends of the earth for her,” she wrote of their daughter, River.

“She adored you – her favourite person, her daddy. You will be missed. I promise to keep River safe, loved, and wrapped in the kind of love you gave so effortlessly. You are at peace now,” Beqiri continued.

As my brother used to say, “you gypos,f” I know you’re laughing together now. You left behind your mini version, our River, and for that we are forever grateful. You will always live on through her, and you will forever be with us.

Ladies of London's Misse Beqiri Breaks Silence on Ex Jake Hall's Death at 35: 'You Are at Peace Now'

Jake Hall with daughter River.MISSÉ BEQIRI/Instagram

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A representative for the Ladies of London star told PEOPLE last week that Beqiri focus was on “supporting and protecting their child as they come to terms with this devastating loss.”

“The family are asking for privacy, compassion and respect while they grieve privately,” the rep said.